So its 2am and yes I am still awake.
I don't know why but I just cant sleep..so instead I read. I'm reading the Bible in a year or I should say trying to read it in a year. My church here at school has a group doing it so me and my friend signed up. I tried last year and got about half way and then I don't know what happened but I do know I stopped reading (as in to read the Bible in a year not quit reading the Bible period). I was reading Feb. 5 and in the OT excerpt of Exodus 21:22-23:13 and something popped out at me... In the selection God is telling the Israelites the rules, eye for an eye, tooth for a tooth...etc. (v.23-25). In chapter 22:27 God says that he will hear when the man cries out for his cloak, because "I am compassionate". Simple: God is compassionate. After reading this it hit me, that sometimes we forget that God is compassionate, he is loving, he cares about us and only wants the best. Even though we may not see or realize it, he has our best interest..we are his children...I am his daughter, he is my father. I know that my daddy (here on earth) would do anything for me.. whether its just to answer a simple question about a bible verse that I dont understand, or a question about a story in the Bible that I cant seem to figure out (which I do often, ask him...Im pretty sure I have called him in the early morning hours). But also with the bigger things, i know that if my daddy says no or yes to something that he has my best interest at heart and whether or not I see that at that moment in time I will in the future. Thats the exact same thing, Jesus our Heavenly Father has our best in mind and would never want to do anything to hurt me, hes compassionate, caring, loving, gentle, strong, firm when need be, hes my Father.
Another thing that I began to think about while sitting in my bed. I dont have a roommate this semester and so it can get pretty quiet and boring and maybe even sometimes lonely which that last one doesnt really bother me but yeah. Well as my parents know since a child one of the biggest things i dealt with was fear and it usually happened at night when all was silent and still. Well that hasnt happened in a while but tonight I began to feel a little fear. Of what? I couldnt tell you but fear is fear it doesnt really matter for what. Well this is just what the Lord, my Father does, right when that feeling starts to come into my spirit the song Perfect Love by Christ for the Nations (if you havent heard of them or heard that song you need to change that.) The song comes from the verse in 1 John 4:18 where it states, "perfect love casts out fear" (which this is the verse I used to repeat to myself when I was younger thanks to one of my pastors) and right when fear tried to start creepin in that song came on and immediately I was calmed because thats what HE does, we are his children, he doesnt want us to hurt or be afraid just like my daddy here doesnt want me to hurt or be afraid, they protect me. I guess when God made man in his image he knew that we being human we needed someone we could actually see as well to place our trust in and thats where dads and parents and family come in, and I have to say I have the best daddy, momma, sisters and family that there is but I am a little biased! :)
I know this entry doesnt make sense in some parts but it made sense in my head and well my brain can be a little all over the place so I am sorry if this is just randomness and jumping from here to there but thats just who I am, its how i roll!
**Robert <3 James**
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